I haven’t blogged in awhile, have I?! I have been feeling so so busy… but really have not… hmm..
We had a worker’s meeting Thursday instead of cell and boy, that was great! Bryan and Joe did a teaching that was the bomb. What hit me most was just how much our meeting could change with more encouragment. Y B did emphasize this point but it didn’t hit me until a couple days ago. How cool could that be!! It’s super hard for me sometimes to encourage peoploe, especially when I am in a bad mood. It’s been a strange journey for me with that struggle. I remember being younger and able to spit out compliments like it was my job. It wasn’t even that young! It was up until 8th grade, as a matter in fact. I went on a missions trip with Anele and a bunch of Columbus kids to Michigan. All the C-bus kids thought I had a gift of encouragment! No joke!! They also thought I was sanguine… and I am a melancholy… who knows?
So, I started Friday trying to compliment people more and more. It really didn’t work. Since then, I have been praying about it. I think it is a much better approach.
Since the worker’s meeting, a lot has happened. Chill, prom, bonfire, driving school, prayer meetin… something every day. Monday was driving school. Monday was also the day I found out my best friend was moving. I think high school is a stupid waste of time which does not deserve pity or any emotion for that matter. But, alas, I broke the front I had been building up for 2 years as a tough cookie and cried… AT FUCKING HIGH SCHOOL. I am so embarrassed.. UGH. People who cry at high school are so –errr. And I TURNED INTO ONE. So, while i was having a mental and emotional breakdown, I asked my sister to pick me up… and just left.
I was fine after meeting with bff & Carrie.
Prayer was sweet the next day. We had a GREAT time at Shelly’s.
And today has been a good day so far… even though my other good friend told me that she is moving to Arizona!!
I swear to you, everybody I touch leaves.. except Asta. Honestly, I have a lit of people who have left fellowship or just left that I have gotten involved with. Lauren Shermer, Courtney, and Sam are just a few.
I am not trying to pity myself. I just realized it totally sounds like that. Why I am saying that is to show what I have learned. All of those people I put time into and had formed a cell group with (i am the only one remaining from that cell.) But, I think it has taught me patience.. and above all faith. People assume others have a hard time with faith. I think I can say I am pretty sturdy in that area. God has taught me patience and to rely on him with people now. Like Lauren Dakters. Though she is leaving against her will, God made me a better person as I reached out to her, using what I knew with all those other people. And with Stefi Sarich now. She has taken much patience but something is sturing into life in her heart (I ask for prayer for her.)
So I have lost some people. I used to let that take over me. Now, God has taught me how to use it… and that’s fucking amazing.
What did we learn on the blog today?: Mano amfibija su oro pagalve pilna ungurių
Lauren Dakters is moving? When? Where? Why?
That’s so sad. I would have cried at school (or wherever) if I were you. It’s okay to be emotional!
Once again, your blog reveals our similarities. I’ve seen quite a few friends leave, including three disciples. It’s really sad, but I do think I’ve learned from it. Mostly importantly, I’m learning how to fail!
I’ve cried in school in the second and third grade. Now i only talk of how I cry to people. Nothing really gets me at school. I’m curious as to why you did. That night of the workers meeting was sweet, everyone was so encouraging ESPECIALLY YOU. Amazed, I almost cried at that letter. I did tear up though, it touched my heart. You’ve changed so much its pretty sweet, read some of your old blogs from like last year and smack yourself lol. Its really cool to see Ell.
Elli, you are one in a million. As my best friend in this whole fuck-up world, you make life a hell of alot better. I couldn’t have gotten to the place I’m at now, if it hadn’t been for your patience and determination. We’ll have all summer to be crazy and take retarded pictures on your trampoline. I promise I’ll visit you and the gang as much as I can.
As for the crying, hell wid it. I cried in school and on the bus on the same day! (Yea that was the time that Chinese kid was staring at me.) People cry El, don’t be ashamed. When I found out i was leaving you and Word, I cried like a baby’s baby! (ew) But yea even JC cried so when you feel sad, kick back and let ‘er rip.
I love you so much and I always will. Don’t forget that!
Your bestesss fran,
Doc